.:. Reflection .:.

As I sit here looking at the letter from my college congratulating me on graduating, I can not help but reflect on where I was, where I am and where I want to be.[Ironically 'Successful” is blasting into my eardrums as I type]

Where I was.

I was a young mother, going through a horrible break-up and depression. I was alone with only my baby boy to comfort me. I was without hope that I would ever be anything in the world that mattered. I just couldn't shake the feeling of being a failure. I just kept rising and falling with no real purpose until I decided I needed to do something for the sake of my one and only son. It was then I decided to enroll in school. I didn't have a clue what I truly wanted to do forever but I knew that I had to get on top of it before I started preaching to my Doot about growing up and making something of himself. Signing up was easy, finding a babysitter and actually getting to school on time was the biggest challenge but I did it. I made it happen and then I began to see the small victories that I knew would amount to me being victorious in the end.


Where I am.

After 2 years of full time working, part & full time school, I am here. Staring my graduation date down like it was the last day of my existence. My baby boy is about to start PreK and he is turning into such a handsome and intelligent little man. Work is going as well as to be expected. I am truly beyond blessed to have the co-workers that I have. They have no idea how much they keep me going, even when I am crying and complaining about everything. While I do have some pretty good things going for me my life isn't truly as peachy keen as I portray. I am still have some serious struggles but I know the source of them and I need to rid myself of that source as much as possible. I can almost guarantee that when the next school year starts my environment will be different. I have a new set of people in my life and I know that there are going to truly help me propel to heights I never dreamed of reaching.


Where I want to be.

When I started school my final goal was completely different than what it is now. But I am a firm believer that each person on this planet has a predestined path that they can and most likely will travel. My path is leading me to be a helper. I have always been a helping person so I feel that this fits me to a T. I know that I won't be stopping at one degree either. My new motto is Master's Or Bust!. I have to get the highest level degree possible because there are things that I want my little man to have and I see that if I want him to have it, I am going to have to provide it for him. I am learning that in my future I don't want to have to depend on anyone but me and the Man above, who makes all things possible for me and in my life. I am strong, determined and refusing to give up, so even if I am not still blogging in the next 5 years know that I will be where I want to be, reflecting on what I wrote years ago.